GGGrrrrRRrrrr~

i can't say it's unfair because superman has a 'job' and brings home the $. it's funny how he use to hint that i should get a job. but whenever the conversations turns to 'what about supergirl?' - of course our best conclusion was that i be a stay a home full time mommy. which by the way, i do immensely enjoy. it's wonderful to be here and by supergirl's side almost every second, and never miss a milestone. never. since her birth........ i've probably been 'away', away as in out of the house a total of 6 times. that's dinner with friend(s) and/or weddings/events. yup, half a dozen. the rest of the time, we always always bring supergirl with us. always. so that's how often supergirl and i get to enjoy each other's company. an avg of 359 days a year.

that being said, i love it. when superman comes home, depending on time and his mood, he and supergirl will play and i get some alone time to sip a cup of tea, read a book, check email. however, there are times when superman is super insensitive. and it's these times i feel he takes me and my time with supergirl for granted.

superman personally knows the attention and time he needs to devote to her when they are together. i mean, come on, she is the baby! we are the 'responsible' adults here. he'll be like he can't get this done, can't do this or that, cuz she's hanging around him or won't leave him alone. at times when i am super sensitive or just frustrated, i ask him well how do you think supergirl is when she's with me? the exact same way. and i deal with it, i take care of her because she is my super darling baby girl right?! there are times when she's so clingy she cries while i am sitting on the toilet trying to get the deed done! and i deal with lots of things such as that every single day. and i don't fall apart or complain or break.... albeit there are times, pmsing perhaps, when i might get a bit anxious and teary.

and now supergirl is getting super smart and sharp. it's as if her memory is a magnet. can't get away with nothing with her!! i try to instill some certain fair discipline rules. the thing is 'consistency.' and superman can't hardly support me at all. he's all soft and weak when it comes to his baby girl. the thing is supergirl knows this too!! so he has become her fall back person, she goes to her when things do not go her way with me. and he just scoops her up and as if all her naughtiness is forgiven.

it's hard.
i know i am rambling.
it's hard to find a medium.

but he needs to show supergirl he's on my side. but he doesn't do that- enough. i'm so frustrated.

no more mama's milk

it's been 9 days.
it wasn't a easy thing to do, but it's done.
we love supergirl.
love love supergirl.
i miss nursing her... very much.
i know she misses it too.
there are moments where she'll look into my eyes and ask boldly 'milk.'

supergirl was nursed for 15 months!!